Change Is Strange And Arranged

Sunday, March 29, 2009, 7:30 PM

Disclaimer: Long post. You may not really want to read it 'cos you'd probably not understand what/who I am referring to/talking about at most of the parts, lol.

My. Legs. Are. Breaking.
O.o Woke up today, earrlllyyy (and like I said to my dearest cousins, this is probably one of the earliest time I've got up in my last 2-3 years of life. LOL) this morning, at 630am. It's an annual thing where we go to a temple or something (pardon, I haven't always been well-informed about my religion xD) to, uhm, 'pay a respect' to our grandad. I don't really know him, since I was only 5 when, you know, things happen. But I respect him nevertheless. I know he's a great person (:
So, the day was really long, seeing how much time I am awake today, like, 13 hours now, and counting. Our arguably new-found love - badminton/football/basketball. lol. The 7 of us went down to have a go at each of those sports xD And trust me, I'm getting old. LOL. Badminton was fantastic as usual. Basketball - plain shooting - what else do I know? xD And football was the most exhausting xD Omgod. But I gotta say, this period of time has got to be the time of my life (: When we are all sooo close, no dramas, no nothing like it would have been in the Real World. This is almost like a make-believe, and I'm loving this semi-mirage. I love you guys, cousins :D You make my life fun-filled.

And I was just talking to my sister about friends, you know, and best friends, to be more specific. Just the thought of having someone close to you, someone who knows you - is something, I bet, most, if not all of us, take for granted. I believe I took it for granted in the past, and the memories make me think a lot. I miss them :(
I think these people need recognition (read them with friendship in mind and not love/romance-related), although I'm sure a fair number of them don't read this.
Let's start from my Primary School. I moved to Jurong when I was 10, and thus, transferred school too - to Jurong West Primary School. Although it was originally hard to, I think it has been the best move ever. I love my Primary School mates, like so SO much. The gang - June, Yixiang, Xianhuan, Kristin, Sarah, Engheng, and Jimmy. Friends come and go, some just stay in your harbor, just because you cherish them, -you- want to continue the friendship. All of them are special species of their kind, WE know how long those memories will stay in our head. Truth-or-dare, prefect duties, hiding under the spiral staircase, block catching after school, with a complaint that reached our dearest MissWong, Iceman, Basketballs till evening after school, Gray baby, Bai Hai Tun, and the many many groups. All the hookups, all the gossips, all the scandals. I can go on and on about it, because they are never-ending, and they'll never end, at least in my mind.
A special dedication to June. You are like, my best friend, through and through. The calls you got after school each day, asking about the homeworks (quickly followed by gossips), I'm sorry you had to go through them. The light you bring to our clique - the chatterbox nature you are, topics always start from you, and you get us talking, you get us moving. You are the backbone of the group, and you are not going anywhere even when we have dentures in our mouth at age 67. Always the organzier of outings, we'll fail so much without you. You are such a great, great friend. I'm so glad I met you, and the whole clique when our story begins from 4F.
I'm thankful we're still meeting up every now and then. Probably one of the friendships I cherish the most.

In Secondary School, I was pretty much a geek, a goody-goody boy. I have no idea how I got nominated as a Councillor early in the days. I love the people who wrote my name down, and that got me to the interview, which, I, fortunately, passed. It was the start of the development of Edsmond, in a proper way. I know I will be a failure in life if I hadn't been selected as a Student Councillor in my Seconday School life. Ms Wong (then the Student Council teacher-in-charge) is one of the most influential people I've ever met in my life. You taught me so much, and it's you I grow so much over the 4 years under your surveillance. I can't imagine my life without your guidance. I really would suck, and I mean it.
Granted, my attitude changed quite drastically after being VP. Looking back, I know I could have done it better, and I know how power can devour a person. I know it's probably too late now, to realize that, but at least, now I know what I should do when I have the power. It was kind of a chaos, although I managed to pull it off.
There're 3 persons in my Secondary School life I have to thank so much, for being there for me. I can be a weirdo at times, and being me, I choose my friends really carefully.
The first person is, HongXiang. I remember very clearly - you contribute partially to who I am today, and I am grateful. Remember, in the bus (how we always need to have a plastic bag just in case your bus-sickness works up), I never fail to sit beside you, and I was, like aforementioned, a geek. He taught me to 'need to think fast and be on the feet', he taught me to be cocky, and to be truthful, that isn't a bad thing at all. It's the right amount of cockiness that makes a person more interesting. And it's him I know how to crack jokes now, and talk cock to almost anything whenever I'm with someone I'm comfortable with. You pass me the skills, 'teacher' :D
Being in the Student Council together - going to camps together, we stuck to each other when we were doing Council stuff, and it was great times, because I really had some hell of a time whenever I'm with you. I don't care how you feel when we're hanging out together, because you had no choice. lol. Not being in the same class for 4 years wasn't a barrier at all. And it's unbelievable, come to think of it. It's just sad, we don't really talk anymore now. Life has to go on, and we have to move on. Just wish that your studies is all good and life is as good (:

And the next person, or two, you decide, but I'm sticking to one. Andrea and Eevin. Without one, the other doesn't function, haha. I can't remember how we met, but probably through Council with Andrea, and Eevin through Andrea. The three of us were only in the same class in the later part of the years, but trust me, it's enough for me to like them already, lol. Gossips - that's almost a must. Food, another must, actually. lol. How we bought food and stuff. And I remember so clearly that during one of the breaks, Eevin brought this bar of Cadbury Chocolate (the triple thingy I think? xD), it was from NZ (was it?), and can't be found in Singapore. The three of us just sat by our seats and finished the whole freaking bar before the break was even over. It's the long rectangular block of chocolate (about 4 bucks per block in Singapore) - and trust me, finishing it in 20 mins is craaazyyy. lol. I enjoyed it so much. HAHA xD Youth Day Performance (omgod I miss it so much). Graduation Day Performance - how you guys were supporting me so much even though I know I suck, lol. It was embarrassing, but I know you guys were behind me, and I feel so 'aww' just to think back. I miss hanging out with you guys. Probably the only sane (or insane? xD) people around then, oops. lol.
(Can't forget to add Jo to the picture, seeing how she's our one and only uber loyal supporter of our occasional class mini gig. Awww xDD)
I still love you two bananas (:

No offence to any other friends, you guys are still awesome. It just takes time, and I believe I'm a very different person, who, then in turn, need some very different friends to make it as my closest friends of all times. And I know it isn't easy, which kinda suck. It feels so good to think back at the memories, and being with them everyday. My life rocks because of you guys. And I know it'd be hard to come by, with my nature.
As we grow older, life gets tougher. It's no more daily fun times. Life gets serious, because you have to start planning for your life. Sad, but true. We developed characteristics that go against you. I am a perfectionist, although not entirely. I admit that I like to win (yup, Chekjie, and we rock xD), but at the same time, I've learnt how to control the degree of 'liking to win', and the adverse effects of them. Liking to win also usually comes with big and gigantic ego. But I've successfully suppressed it, so much so that I don't really care about ego fluffing now. And I'm glad of that, because people with huge ego disgusts me, to put it bluntly. Remember I read a lot into people. But I'm not a freak, LOL.
I'm also one who is super impatient. I remembered when I was young, I was actually pretty patient. I have no idea what made me change 360degrees on this. Seriously, I flare up very easily - when someone is doing something stupid and without common sense, it angers me. I've been trying to deal with that, but I kind of fail quite a bit. I mean, I don't mean to be bad or mean, but sometimes working with people of the same level as you makes it so much easier. But we have to learn to work with anyone and everyone - and I'm not complaining about anyone (I say this with all my heart), I'm just self-evaluating.

I just told my sister that I really feel like being a geek next semester. I've wanted to be in previous semesters, but wasn't successful at all. I don't care what people say about me being a geek for the past semesters (because they probably don't know me well enough - I am anything but a geek, trust me), it's just the distractions (most of the times, internet) that disrupts my goal. I really hope to work for my next semester, I don't care for life anymore.

This has, by far been the most emotional post for me. -Sigh of relief- It's good to say what I have in mind.
If you've read the whole post, well, you've wasted quite some minutes of your life. lol. People probably don't know what I'm blabbering about but I just want to put it out.
If you've skipped to here, then, well done, lol. Good night (:

Edsmond